I have an anchor… July 16, 2009

It is amazing how God works!! I can’t believe how he is moving in my life. I am just so happy that he has been with me. I went to prayer meeting yesterday and the Holy Spirit was just in the midst. I mean to hear people testify of his goodness, singing hymns, coming together on one accord in prayer. Let me see how I can give you a brief synopsis of all of this. I was raised in the church. I went to church from the time I was born. My mom who is a phenomenal women, made sure we went to church. There was no if’s ands or but’s about it. You lived in my house you went to church. I am not talking about going every other week; we went to church rain, sleet, or snow. If you would have went to work on that day, you was going to church. As I got older I can remember staying out all night, and being so drunk that my head was pounding, she didn’t care she was like come on. Get you some water and let’s go. This was up until I left for college. I never could figure out why she made us go until, I am an adult with children and I totally understand. In times like these you need an anchor. All my life she was working on building that anchor and even though I strayed and went away. My anchor was already there so I couldn’t go too far, because connected to that anchor was a rope. As I began to go through it all and just when my boat was a bout to break loose and drift off that line stiffened up and I couldn’t go no more. So then I just sat out at sea, not going forward but too dumb to go back. I did whatever I felt and misused and mistreated so many people to get what I wanted and needed and along the way I allowed people to use and abuse me. All the while people were praying for me, lookin at me, not giving up on me. But it wasn’t until I made the conscious decision of my own to pull out my oar and go back to that anchor could I truly live a life that was pleasing to him. I need to say this. I am not perfect and in no way do I profess to be but I know that God has his hands in my life. I know he is ready for me to shine for him. He saved me and brought me through it all in order for him to get the glory. In prayer meeting we were talking about God conditioning you to do what he needs you to do. We were talking about Paul and how he was a sinner of all sinners. And once God came in his life. Gave him a new name he was one of his hardest workers. I know there are things I need to do and some things I need to put in order and I am telling yall, He is in the blessing business. I have so many good things going on. If you read my blog constantly than you know where I was at nearly two months ago. My heart was broken and at times I couldn’t even hold it together but the God that I serve, picked me up, and dusted me off, put my mind back where it was supposed to be. It only happened because I continued to praise God. It is so easy to praise God when everything is going good. Praise him when it is bad and you have hit another level. I thank him for being a comfort to me when I didn’t have it in me to continue. This is me as transparent as you will get because I want you to know that, if it had not been for the Lord on my side……. Man where would I be. The storm is over now. He made me realize who is really number one. God is a jealous god and he deserves to be. He sent his son for my sins. I don’t know another person on this earth that will offer up their child for my salvation. I am a parent so I know how that would feel. Time is winding up. If you don’t know him, you will know him. Every knee must bow. So many people think their existence and being comes from the money from their jobs. Get out of here; He is my true source of income. I gotta go before I start shouting, I am out. Be blessed