It is Friday and all is well. I am still here and thanks to God I made it through another day. I am really just good. Some might be like why is she saying this like that, but to be honest, I can finally breathe. I was watching Waiting to Exhale the other night. One of my favorite movies and once again I could identify with all the characters. At some point in my life I have been at the level of each one of them.
Whitney – tired of simple men
Lela – Desperate taking whatever, not even seeing the signs
Loretta – Tired of being alone using your children and food to pacify your time
Angela – Left for another woman
But all I could think about was when Whitney was like, “And then I Exhaled”. I feel like I have been holding my breath too long. Lol I am ready to tapout. This is so the truth I was chopping it up with my people on FB yesterday regarding men, and the lack of them. Decent ones anyway. I think that relationships take a lot of work and just when you think you know a person and have figured them out they go and do something to hurt you and then you are lost. I have learned to be content with me. You should not allow a man to dictate your happiness. You gotta control you own smiles and cries. You could be in a relationship face to face with a person, and still not realize they are cheating because you are so focused on making what you got work you don’t even realize he has moved on. Good men and bad men do it too. I think women are very manipulative and men being weak fall into traps that they need to avoid. Let me stay focused but what I am trying to say is, that you can’t depend on things or people to make you breath. I exhale because I know that God takes care of me.
Good things are happening for me. Old wounds are healing and I am trying my best to do right. I have stepped back and allowed God to move and he just may move things like I hope. We shall see. I am out, be blessed!!
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