Weekend Unload July 6, 2009

There is so much to say!!!! I had a great weekend full of activities, festivities, motherhood. You name it I did it. I am so grateful to God for all that he has done for me. I can’t believe how he has just been working in my life on so many fronts. I must admit. I have been running, “Diary of a Mad Black Women” marathon. I must have watched it 6 times this weekend. Or at least started it and walked away. I love this movie because I feel it and so see how uplifting it is. Especially with all that I have been dealing with these past few months. On some fronts I think my blog has turned in that same diary. Oh well I am getting back and bouncing back just like the woman in the movie. I sit and think about all the anger I had and I just simply let it go. I know the Lord rewards faithfulness and I as I journey through this world, no matter what people say about me. I will remain faithful to him. I used to wear my feelings on my sleeve, not a good place for them. So when people see my weakness and attack it, I would be hurt but I have concluded that 9 times out of 10 most people that put my name in their mouth really don’t know the true me anyway. Now they may know the party, kick it, stay out all night, never be in a relationship because I dare not to commit, young men dating, messing with other people’s man and doing all kind of dirt me. But they don’t know this me. I am ok if they talk about me because I know who I am and whose I am so words don’t matter.  It is funny how God works, I recently saw this girl that I couldn’t stand in high school and even in my early twenties, she and I were dating the same guys like all the time. We used to argue and cuss each other out because I felt like each time I dated or met someone here she came. Now that I think about it we kinda looked alike so of course we attracted the same men, duh. But I was young and stupid. Anywho. I saw her and I said “Hey how are you?” She looked kinda weird at first but she answered and we talked and spoke about our children and life and then we departed with a hug. Wow. Yes, wow. Never in a million years would I thought me and this woman would be able to do that. It amazed me because I know she was floored by my demeanor especially since we hadn’t seen each other or argued in years. But I was glad to see her and happy she was doing well because the arguments and fights we had were childish and juvenile and since I claim to put away all my childish things I dare not be mean to her. We had communion in church yesterday and my pastor was like if you have wronged someone you need to apologize. I haven’t knowingly done anything to anyone in a long time. But if I have done wrong to someone I want to make it right. I can’t walk around and act like I never done dirt because I have. When I see people I try to make it right. I took my children downtown to the festival this weekend and they were like Mommy you know everybody. I just laughed because I do know a lot of people and yes I stopped and talked and I talked and they were ready to go. I remember doing the same thing with my mom. We had a 2.5 mile parade Saturday in Bexley, OH so my thighs are still burning, lol That doesn’t seem long but when you are watching out for kids and trying to make sure they don’t pass out, it can be tiresome. I like Bexley. In three years it just may be my new home. I am still working on this business harder now than before and it amazes me how it is just coming together. I have told yall enough for now. I am out, Be Blessed!!