Now decrease me July 1, 2009

This morning, I woke up praying. Clear mind, clear heart and clear soul. It kinda tripped me out because last night, I woke up every hour on the hour, just for a few seconds but I was up. I had an interesting conversation last night with an old friend. The basics of it was just like when you evolve and things don’t evolve around you they are out of place. You need to remove them and continue your evolution. That’s deep but real. Everyone that was walking with you before may not necessarily be who will walk with you in the end. I wouldn’t call myself a writer. Everything you get from me comes from my heart. I have no forum; I try to make no big impressions on people. What I do is simply put my feelings and my experiences out there for those that need or choose to read them. I am brutally honest to the point where I even put my own self out there just so the story can be told. Is it one sided at times, yes, but not intentionally. There are a few things I am going to set the record straight about but not today. I have some things I need to say to some people when I get in the right mind to say them. I have to get rid of all of my stuff before I can move to the next level. I know when it is placed on my heart to do some things the Lord will help me get through them and still come out not looking like a hypocrite. I think about the infamous break up and I know there were some things I did that I shouldn’t have done and in time I will right those wrongs. I think of Baby, poor thang, I did a number on his name and his character and that was wrong. I know that I accept that and in time he and I will be good too. He was a good guy. He just rubbed me the wrong day and the wrong time and I gave him the business. The demise of our relationship was not all of his fault but I was so focused on me I couldn’t see that. He is my brother and one of my dearest friends and I will always have love for him for what he helped me get through. Like I said yesterday at times when you are going through things you don’t look at the big picture.

Now as for me I am not moving away, I am going to stand on the word of God and continue to press. I know in the end of it all I will be good. So as I journey into the higher heights, I am going to bring you along so you will see that God works things out for those who love him. What’s about to go on in my life will be nothing short of a miracle. As things come to pass and as I stand at the finishing line somebody will be like Wow. Where do I sign up? How do I meet this God? I know it like I know my name and I am receiving confirmation daily.

I have learned things that we perceive in all actuality may not be reality. I prayed for the decreasing of me this morning. I asked God to remove me and my ego from all that I do so I can be used by him. Now yesterday, I dealt with the decreasing of sin, today I decrease me. I wonder what will go tomorrow. I am out, be blessed.