October 22, 2008

I wasn’t going to blog today, not much to talk about beans has so much going on. I am trying to stay focused. I am trying to keep it all together. Being weak is just not a good look for me. More and more I feel like I watch my life. I feel like I am still sitting in the road a little bit, I think this feeling just comes and goes. I am really still working on my happiness. I am working on me. I need to be a certain way in order to be the mother I strive to be. Raising children is a hard job you have so many decisions to make. I want to be stern, yet delightful. I know my children are spoiled rotten. I make sure they are happy; I am a mom, that’s what we do. Now I don’t cook often because my schedule doesn’t permit me to be home to have their dinner waiting. I figure if we all suffer through this now the reward is in the end. At times I wish I could spend more time with them but there are only so many hours in a day. We always joke because I will be like “Now who is the best mom on the planet?” They yell “You” then I say “I know”. At this time they are 6, 8, and 9. I can’t wait until they get a little older. We already have so much fun together. I laugh now but they are really little human beings. I love them all because they are so beautiful. I mean they are cute, look at they mama. Hahaha. But seriously they each have a beautiful spirit. I am done for today, like I said not really much to say. Be Blessed.