I am content October 20, 2008

I am ready for this day to begin, and then end. I actually took a three hour nap yesterday when I got home from church. I haven’t done that since I’ve had children, but they went over the babysitter’s house, that lives 2 doors down and didn’t want to come home. My youngest came home at night time; he doesn’t like to spend the night over people’s house. I had a peaceful weekend. I had a lot of time to think. I have been doing a lot of thinking. I have come to the realization that I am a tad bit emotionally unstable. No beans isn’t crazy but I would be a fool not to think I have some issues. I have been praying for the God to purge me so that I can heal. Church was so good yesterday, my pastor preached my favorite scripture passage, Philippians 4, 1-13. It was the word that I needed. Now I am not sure who else got theirs but that message was mine for the taking. I have learned to be content with plenty and nothing. I have learned that whatever God has in store for me it is mine for the taking as long as I follow his will. I am not sure about a lot of things but this one thing I know my heavenly father watches over me. As I think over my life I am just in awe regarding his works in my life. I didn’t make it to Sunday school this week. But I was close so next Sunday I am going to try it again. God is so awesome, He is a very present help in my life. I have so much running through my head. I went out with my cousins to eat and we had a good time. It was different because my baby and I are always out; it is different going out without him. We haven’t been together long, as I am sure you all know, but is amazing the things that I’ve learned about myself during this time. Our history is eccentric; I never really give you the circumstance of our relationship but just know, time just doesn’t heal all wounds. I am in prayer over it al I think we have come to close to turn back but the devil is trying his best to come between, but at the end. God will get the glory when we work through all our issues. In the mean time I am content. I am happy in Jesus alone. I will wait on him to manifest all things in my life. I have noticed I have become detached from some of my friends lately too. Even though I love them, we just haven’t been vibing like we used to, but as long as they are fine, I’m good. I am sure if they need me they will call. I gotta go be blessed