Off to Sunday school I go…. October 15, 2008

I wasn’t going to post this morning because I really have been trying to stay positive on my blog. I try to let people know about the goodness of the God I serve without all the extra drama. However, I am really just in a state of disbelief. I know that I am right on the edge of a serious breakthrough when it comes to my spirituality. God has so much in store for me. I feel like the next step or the next event will be the one that takes me to the right place where I can just be free. I have been in prayer for clarity and revelation and I am seeing things in a new light. The sad part of it all is that when things are revealed to you that you don’t want to come to pass are a hard thing to swallow. I can’t be mad at all that I am seeing for the first time because this is what I asked for. I think he will work it all out for my good. In due time. I have no patience, I like for things to be done, right here, right now. God doesn’t process things in beans time. So as I wait. I am now asking for patience. My testimony will not be complete until he says it’s done. Last night I was thinking about all the sins of my past wondering how I could rectify things I had done in order for people to know that God is now in control. Then I thought, I don’t have to do or say anything, it will be evident. Those that need to see what God has done will see it. I try so hard to maintain an image of this or that, but it’s not about my image. I don’t care what it looks like. I know what it’s gonna be so with that being said I will follow his word and do my best to do his will. It is my intent to live a life pleasing to God. For the past few months I have been sending my children to Sunday school, and that is good, but I am going to start going with them. I can make it to my job, I can go to class, and I can do a million in one things on the weekend so I will be going to get the word too. I need to dig in the word. I need to be more into the word so when the enemy comes my way, I will know what to do. I can pray, but I need understanding to back it up. So off to Sunday school I go. I know a lot about the bible but my study habits are lacking, I study for school, I need to study for life. I am sure I will be more successful. Be Blessed