Ok, I work in an office, There are bout 30 people at this time 25 of them are on a diet. Well one of our vendors just brought in a tray of killer Brownies and butter cookies from Dorothy Lane Market. I am not on a diet. I don’t have that much self restraint, plus my size is cool, I am thick but my waist is small. Imagine a marble tray full of bite sized chocalatey delights, now they are covered in powdered sugar, some have caramel and coconut in them. It is truly a tasty feast for your mouth. Now in the center of all of that are butter cookies that melt in your mouth. Like I said most of my office is on a diet so I am in heaven. I think I’ve died and gone to sweet heaven.
Nervous about Love…. October 10, 2008
I love Grey’s Anatomy, that is my show, I love all the characters and I can see a little of all of them in me. I have really been going through this struggle within myself trying to find happiness and cope with love. I am so not used to dealing with things I tend to over think things so I don’t look stupid. The key is that I can’t come out of this looking like a fool. I feel like everyone around is just sitting around with their mouth watering waiting for me to mess up. I want my relationship to last but it is hard because I don’t want to be vulnerable. I don’t want to look stupid; I don’t want to be the grown fool. Has anyone ever felt that way? In love, trusting but scared. As I get deeper in I find feelings that I never had before. If you knew me you would not think that I was insecure, but I think I am. I am a mother, a medical professional, I can stand in front of groups of people hold question and answer periods about what I do with some of the greatest physicians in the area, yet I am nervous about love. That is crazy but that’s it. I am nervous. I know it is a sin to be nervous, but I am. I figured it out as I argued with my baby at 3 AM this morning. Does anybody else get nervous? Are you scared when it is going to good? Is that normal?
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