This afternoon, I must admit, I am totally disappointed, I tried to be healthy regarding my snack and I am so frustrated because they can keep this. I think the older I get I can’t eat processed foods, I had this lunchable thing, it had swiss cheese, cheddar, ham and turkey with ritz crackers, this is some bull. I may have to put down my picket sign and get something else. I really need to make better choices, I should have went to a store in the hood they have the best snacks.
Make it clear……. October 9, 2008
The power of discernment is something I don’t possess or if I do have it, I sure don’t use it. I think back over my life and I realize I can’t figure out who actually has my best interest at heart. If people do care for me and are genuine I can’t tell that either. It is so hard for me to trust people. I can’t believe that I am so naïve at times. I feel like I am so smart in some instance and so dumb in others. I have been praying for clarity this week. I need God to make things clear. I need him to make it plain. Allow me to see people for who they really are. I have friends that I thought felt one way about me and come to find out from others they feel a completely different way. I have had people call me and ask me for things or I have done things for them, and they act like it was nothing when I made a sacrifice on their behalf. I am not sure why family or friends for that matter do that to you. I am not moved, a little hurt, probably so. My baby always tells me if you can’t afford to give it away don’t loan it out. With me things aren’t about money, it comes and it goes, but I think about respect. I am not saying kiss my behind because I gave you a few bucks, but don’t go on a shopping spree when you have a debt you haven’t repaid. It doesn’t even matter to me, because what you do with good intentions will not be frowned upon by God. I am really evolving. I see things in a different light, more now than ever before. God has been revealing things to me one by one and now I need him to clarify them to me. I think when all is said and done these test will be more to add to my testimony. I know that people in your life are sent to you to allow you to gain knowledge. With that being said I am in prayer and hoping that God continues to breathe on my new business. I think I am about to do an experiment for a friend of mine for free just to see how it will work. If this goes well in a year of two, I will be on a different level, still beans of course but beans the boss, lol. I will keep you post ed. Be Blessed!!!
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