This is just an FYI I am still good. God is still working things out for my good. The road is long and the burdens at times get heavy but I decided to make Jesus my choice so I am sticking to that. I lived a meaningless selfish life for too long. Serving God pays off after while. I know it does. Anyway last night I was laying down, it was late and it is funny how God will speak to you and you are like Arnold on Different Strokes “What you talking about Jesus?” All I heard was PUSH. I am like Ok push what; I would love to push some folks out a window. LOL. So I laid there and I thought PUSH
P – Pray
U – Until
S – Something
H – Happens
I thought to myself, Wow. I get it I have been trying to keep myself rooted and grounded running to prayer meeting. Trying to stay out the club and not fall victim to the flesh, but I am on that. I know that God is doing things in me because I am so calm these days. Say what you will about your girl, you get no rise out of me. I am too cool for that. I don’t have time to lose my soul because Mary Jane don’t like me. I will pray for her. I say to myself all the time. Perception is not reality. I have people right now in my life that I know they don’t like me and that’s OK because I love them. Once you change your thought process you can’t help but to pray for those who talk about you or are mean to you. I said this before if you really knew who I belonged to you wouldn’t go there. I am so thankful to God for being a healer. He healed my heart and I never thought that was possible. I think that people don’t understand what you go through while you are going through it because they can’t feel what you feel. I know this the Lord giveth and he taketh and he giveth again, but better. That’s how he works. You learn from mistakes and you move forward.
This Mom job is more new and interesting everyday. I have decided to let my children go visit their father and his family for Thanksgiving. It will be an interesting experience because the longest we ever been apart was three days and that was six years ago, so I bet yall can imagine my nervousness but as always God will take care of them and I need to allow them to see that others care for them besides me so this will be a learning experience.
Well I continue to Pray, More Prayer, More Power. I am out, be blessed.